Surprised it wasn't sooner

[muckefuck]

"I'm very happy you called," she said, and I was surprised to hear it.

But why did I call? I must've had a compelling reason, since it was almost a year ago that we agreed never to speak to each other again. But all I'd done was babble inanities about mutual friends. I felt myself tearing up as I said, "I am, too. I miss you."

"I'm very happy you called," she said again.

And then I realised that she was telling me--every so gently, in that unflappably polite manner of hers--that it was time for me to hang up, which I did. And it occurred to me that I still had no idea how she really felt.

Then I woke up.

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[moominmolly.livejournal.com]

...ouch.

I have dreams like that, from time to time. Sometimes there's reconciliation; I think that kind makes me even sadder when I wake up.