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I made a dumb mistake with dinner last night and reaped horrible reflux. I didn't buy enough milk for the mushroom cream sauce I decided to make so I tried extending it with some cognac but of course there wasn't time to cook off much of the alcohol. You wouldn't expect that less than a tablespoon hours before bedtime would mess me up, but boy howdy. I had to take Pepto and sleep in and I still feel tired enough I think I'm going to cancel to my plans for tonight. They weren't anything big, just a show at the Neo-Futurarium. Friends and neighbours invited me last night and I hesitated before my "do the thing" mantra kicked in. It would've been fun, but it's an excuse to propose getting together some other time when a bad night won't make as much difference.
Yesterday's "bomb cyclone" was something of a dud. I'd actually picked a lunch spot with the intention of getting "trapped" there during a downpour, someplace relatively quiet where I could moodily stare out of the window. But the window seats were all taken and it was just drizzle so I slunk back here anyways. I compensated by taking a paperback up to the Music Library and finding a cozy window seat where I could read for a bit. I ended up napping as well, so it was all good.
Today is Nuphy's birthday so I tried to give him a call but we were both in transit. He's out at his daughter's house in the burbs for a fancy meal courtesy of his son-in-law. He confessed via text message that when someone asked him recently how I was, he didn't know what to say, since we no longer talk or see each other lately. It bothers me a bit, but I've accepted as part of a more general slowdown in his activity and just been waiting patiently to see if he notices the lack. Apparently that's happened because he suggested we get together soon.
I'm in kind of this weird state nowadays where I simultaneously feel alone and neglected and yet overwhelmed by social opportunities. I've met a lot of new people lately who'd I think I'd like to hang out with but it's been difficult to find times to get together with them (exacerbated in some cases by the fact that they're not planners at all). It's also hard to prioritise, and then my self-doubt kicks in and I wonder if they would really welcome an invitation from me. So I end up doing nothing while wishing I were doing something. Is that where everyone is at these days?
Yesterday's "bomb cyclone" was something of a dud. I'd actually picked a lunch spot with the intention of getting "trapped" there during a downpour, someplace relatively quiet where I could moodily stare out of the window. But the window seats were all taken and it was just drizzle so I slunk back here anyways. I compensated by taking a paperback up to the Music Library and finding a cozy window seat where I could read for a bit. I ended up napping as well, so it was all good.
Today is Nuphy's birthday so I tried to give him a call but we were both in transit. He's out at his daughter's house in the burbs for a fancy meal courtesy of his son-in-law. He confessed via text message that when someone asked him recently how I was, he didn't know what to say, since we no longer talk or see each other lately. It bothers me a bit, but I've accepted as part of a more general slowdown in his activity and just been waiting patiently to see if he notices the lack. Apparently that's happened because he suggested we get together soon.
I'm in kind of this weird state nowadays where I simultaneously feel alone and neglected and yet overwhelmed by social opportunities. I've met a lot of new people lately who'd I think I'd like to hang out with but it's been difficult to find times to get together with them (exacerbated in some cases by the fact that they're not planners at all). It's also hard to prioritise, and then my self-doubt kicks in and I wonder if they would really welcome an invitation from me. So I end up doing nothing while wishing I were doing something. Is that where everyone is at these days?
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