Dec. 15th, 2011 08:36 pm
Merry Stressmas!
It's been a week.
I know the holidays are stressful, but I'm the only person I know who has anxiety dreams about waking up Christmas morning with no presents for anyone. In August. But in the end that's not much to have preying on your mind. So when the tachycardia hit, I freaked out about it for a day and then decided to ignore it. Because not knowing the cause of a cardiac anomaly is so much more relaxing than knowing.
Still I plan ahead. So even though it was a couple months back that my bank contacted me about refinancing, I put off speaking to our broker until a little over a week ago so that way his proposed closing date would be the evening before my trip down to St Louis. Because, of course, I'm anxious enough about travel that I have unhappy dreams about that a couple times a week, and this way I would have something to distract me. And even though I knew back then we needed to have a condo meeting--and not just any meeting, but our annual budget discussion--before the end of the year, I left the scheduling up to the other board members with the result that they picked this Monday.
About now, those of you with kids are sharing a chuckle with your spouses about this. But I'm so accustomed to the placid tidal rhythms of my DINK lifestyle that it doesn't take much to throw me. Which is how I found myself coming down with the flu while waiting for the appraiser to show up at our house. It was a lucky thing, because it gave me plenty more time to contemplate at leisure all of the above plus all the possible social offences I could cause with the overdue invitation that
monshu and I were sending out.
That day I hit the jackpot, since that was when the Old Man had the worst day of his hell week at work, a finalist for worst day of work all year. So we did we do to console each other? We tried to sit down and review the papers from the broker together with the result that we had our first real argument in...over a year? Sitting in bed that night--alone--I remembered what my father likes to say about money being expensive and wondered if the couple thou we stood to save each year was going to prove worth it after all.
It ain't over yet, but today we turned the corner. I somehow made it through a day of work (topping it off with the classic borrow-a-pen-to-take-minutes-because-you-forgot-it-was-your-turn manoeuvre at my afternoon meeting). Yesterday afternoon, I dragged myself from my sickbed to run an errand or two and cook up a big pot of bigos. I ended up having to leave the meal in half-swoon and pull
monshu away from fixing the computer (yes, again) to finish it, but it meant that tonight was as simple as heating up the leftovers so we could get down to the business of going over the numbers one last time and agreeing that this way forward made sense.
With any luck, one week from now I will reclining calmly in an Amtrak car with a clean bill of health and nothing important missing from my luggage. Our new loan will be finalised as well as the 2012 condo budget and I won't have sparked any unbridgeable riffs due to carelessness or callousness. My only thoughts will be of
monshu enjoying his downtime doing something he wants to do for a change and looking forward to baking cookies, watching videos on YouTube, and playing board games with my sister's family. It's my dream and I'm going to see it happen.
I know the holidays are stressful, but I'm the only person I know who has anxiety dreams about waking up Christmas morning with no presents for anyone. In August. But in the end that's not much to have preying on your mind. So when the tachycardia hit, I freaked out about it for a day and then decided to ignore it. Because not knowing the cause of a cardiac anomaly is so much more relaxing than knowing.
Still I plan ahead. So even though it was a couple months back that my bank contacted me about refinancing, I put off speaking to our broker until a little over a week ago so that way his proposed closing date would be the evening before my trip down to St Louis. Because, of course, I'm anxious enough about travel that I have unhappy dreams about that a couple times a week, and this way I would have something to distract me. And even though I knew back then we needed to have a condo meeting--and not just any meeting, but our annual budget discussion--before the end of the year, I left the scheduling up to the other board members with the result that they picked this Monday.
About now, those of you with kids are sharing a chuckle with your spouses about this. But I'm so accustomed to the placid tidal rhythms of my DINK lifestyle that it doesn't take much to throw me. Which is how I found myself coming down with the flu while waiting for the appraiser to show up at our house. It was a lucky thing, because it gave me plenty more time to contemplate at leisure all of the above plus all the possible social offences I could cause with the overdue invitation that
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That day I hit the jackpot, since that was when the Old Man had the worst day of his hell week at work, a finalist for worst day of work all year. So we did we do to console each other? We tried to sit down and review the papers from the broker together with the result that we had our first real argument in...over a year? Sitting in bed that night--alone--I remembered what my father likes to say about money being expensive and wondered if the couple thou we stood to save each year was going to prove worth it after all.
It ain't over yet, but today we turned the corner. I somehow made it through a day of work (topping it off with the classic borrow-a-pen-to-take-minutes-because-you-forgot-it-was-your-turn manoeuvre at my afternoon meeting). Yesterday afternoon, I dragged myself from my sickbed to run an errand or two and cook up a big pot of bigos. I ended up having to leave the meal in half-swoon and pull
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With any luck, one week from now I will reclining calmly in an Amtrak car with a clean bill of health and nothing important missing from my luggage. Our new loan will be finalised as well as the 2012 condo budget and I won't have sparked any unbridgeable riffs due to carelessness or callousness. My only thoughts will be of
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