Jul. 15th, 2024 10:46 am
Can't keep 'em around
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muckefuckSo all the way back in February, I was complaining about the electrician who I thought was becoming a regular thing very much not becoming one. Have we gotten together since then? Not a once. He still texts occasionally to tell me he misses me, and today I finally pointed out to him how insincere that sounds to me when every opportunity he had during the last seven months to choose to spend time with me he chose something else instead.
He took it to heart and acknowledged that--despite the fact that it's been a crazy year for him for a number of reasons--it's ultimately due to his priorities that we haven't spent time together. Which is helpful to hear, but still doesn't do anything about the fact that he hasn't chosen to spend time with me.
What about the last guy I posted about, the one I'd had a couple of enjoyable dates with? We briefly became a thing. But then he came to two significant decisions: the first was that, although he really enjoyed being with me, he ultimately thought we were looking for different things. He still wanted to remains FWBs though, which I considered kind of an ideal situation since I'd independently come to the conclusion that, although I also enjoyed spending time with him and could see us continuing to "date" for a while, I wasn't willing to settle for not being in love with someone I consider a romantic partner. But the second decision was that he needed to move back to Florida for a while and get his life together, so so much for having regular fun times together. His birthday is in 11 days and he plans to come back for that but that may be the last we see of each other for a while.
I did have a good second date with someone last Thursday but it's hard to say how much potential there is there. So I'm back to being awash in sexual partners and bereft of much in the way of romantic prospects, something I have mixed feelings about. Back when Florida Man and I were hooking up a couple times a week and I was starting to bring him to social events, I felt a certain sexual FOMO. But I still feel that would be different if I had someone I was truly crazy for instead of just a solid interesting guy who likes my dick. We may never know.
He took it to heart and acknowledged that--despite the fact that it's been a crazy year for him for a number of reasons--it's ultimately due to his priorities that we haven't spent time together. Which is helpful to hear, but still doesn't do anything about the fact that he hasn't chosen to spend time with me.
What about the last guy I posted about, the one I'd had a couple of enjoyable dates with? We briefly became a thing. But then he came to two significant decisions: the first was that, although he really enjoyed being with me, he ultimately thought we were looking for different things. He still wanted to remains FWBs though, which I considered kind of an ideal situation since I'd independently come to the conclusion that, although I also enjoyed spending time with him and could see us continuing to "date" for a while, I wasn't willing to settle for not being in love with someone I consider a romantic partner. But the second decision was that he needed to move back to Florida for a while and get his life together, so so much for having regular fun times together. His birthday is in 11 days and he plans to come back for that but that may be the last we see of each other for a while.
I did have a good second date with someone last Thursday but it's hard to say how much potential there is there. So I'm back to being awash in sexual partners and bereft of much in the way of romantic prospects, something I have mixed feelings about. Back when Florida Man and I were hooking up a couple times a week and I was starting to bring him to social events, I felt a certain sexual FOMO. But I still feel that would be different if I had someone I was truly crazy for instead of just a solid interesting guy who likes my dick. We may never know.
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