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muckefuckSo it's finally beginning to sink in that I'm actually going to be in Hawai'i in a week. After putting it off for weeks because just the thought sends my anxiety spiking, I talked to Ginger Cowboy last night and got some specifics. I now know where we'll be staying, what his priorities are (well, some of them at least), and I've cracked open the guidebook he convinced me to buy.
I still haven't done any real boundary-setting, because I know that's going to be challenging and it's probably done best face-to-face. Worst case scenario I have to find my own place to stay on short notice, which would cost a small fortune but luckily I have one. I don't see it coming to that or else I wouldn't be going.
Like my first trip to see him, this is an experiment to see if I can get myself more accustomed to traveling and to taking risks in general. I say I want to do these things but I shy away from them whenever they present themselves. The part of me that wants to See the World and Have Adventures is dwarfed by the part that really really enjoys reading a book in in bed while snuggling my cat.
I still haven't done any real boundary-setting, because I know that's going to be challenging and it's probably done best face-to-face. Worst case scenario I have to find my own place to stay on short notice, which would cost a small fortune but luckily I have one. I don't see it coming to that or else I wouldn't be going.
Like my first trip to see him, this is an experiment to see if I can get myself more accustomed to traveling and to taking risks in general. I say I want to do these things but I shy away from them whenever they present themselves. The part of me that wants to See the World and Have Adventures is dwarfed by the part that really really enjoys reading a book in in bed while snuggling my cat.
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