there are still times, three years later, where the reality of my sister's death needs to sink in, yet again. my dad and my brother visited me this past weekend--were she alive, it is unlikely that she would have come, and yet.....

i know that this goes away--the reality of my mother's death has been with me for a while now. but i can't tell you when that happened and i don't know that it will happen the same way this time--i just assume it will happen at some point. i assume it will happen for you but i don't find it at all unusual that it's not with you yet. i don't think it means that you're not dealing with it, necessarily--i think grief and adjustment are two different tracks.

*hug*